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[May. 31st, 2009|03:19 pm] |
I am so restless I feel like bursting out of my skin. I'm sick of my job, my friends, my life...
This town is closing in on me and I long for something new. I don't know why but I feel stuck here. I'm 23, I shouldn't have this feeling of attachment to any place, much less a place that has no more opportunities for me. I'm stuck hanging in limbo and my biggest fear is that I will wake up 30 years old and realise that I have experienced nothing of worth. I'm afraid of living a boring life. I have all of these dreams and ideas and goals but I'm not sure if I have the ambition to get myself there. I wish I could snap myself out of it and become one of those people who gets shit done. There's got to be more for me than this. There's got to be. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2007|02:33 am] |
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I want the anonymity of a wanderer. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2007|09:21 pm] |
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So the other day I'm out on my balcony smoking a cig and checking my email when this wasp starts buzzing around and dive bombing me. I freak out and start swatting at it but it won't go away, then it lands and stings me ON MY BOOB, right below the nipple. THEN it lands on my hand and stung my knuckle. It hurt soo fucking bad and now I have a weird rash on my boob around where it stung me. I loathe insects. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2007|06:19 pm] |
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My dads friend, Juri, has a catering business and a couple weeks ago he hired me to serve at this party for a new business that just opened in Sisters. Apparently one of the guys that works there contacted Ethel (the lady who was putting on the party) afterwards and told her that he wanted to meet "the girl in the red dress" and asked her if she knew how to contact me. So she called Kinley (Juri's wife) who then told me about it. She said that he's cute, in his late 20's, and is a graphic designer. I'm not sure if I want to go out with him, it would be a blind date for me because I have no idea who he is, there were a lot of people at the party, and what if he's a creeper? At the same time I'm sooooo curious. We shall see... |
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| hate will get you everytime |
[Aug. 2nd, 2007|03:27 am] |
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So Dan called me the day after I confronted him about cheating on me. He vehemently denies it. He was sincere about it, enough to make me second guess it. I really don't know what I believe now. Honestly, I really don't give a shit if it's true or not. I act friendly to him when we're out with everyone. My friends say that I'm way too forgiving and that I should give him hell for the way he treated me. I don't know, I just don't see the point in hating someone. Life is too short to be bitter. |
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[Jul. 29th, 2007|04:25 am] |
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Tonight I found out that Daniel made out with his ex-girlfriend while we were dating. I just wish it didn't hurt so bad. |
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| On this, the day of my daughters wedding |
[Jul. 27th, 2007|01:05 am] |
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The Godfather theme song has been stuck in my head for days and I haven't even watched those movies in like, a year. Waaaaa wa wa waaaa waa waaa waaaaa |
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[Jul. 20th, 2007|11:55 pm] |
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The guy from Knocked Up is my dream man. Well, his character is. |
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| BLAH! |
[Jul. 18th, 2007|08:10 pm] |
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Oh my God. Bend is so horribly, horribly boring. I'm really homesick and miss my friends, I don't think I can stay here for as long as I planned. This fucking sucks. |
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[May. 24th, 2007|05:59 pm] |
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We have a nest of the most GIGANTIC bees I have ever seen living in the roof of our porch of our balcony. The weird thing is there is only one tiny hole that they are about 10 times the size of that they squeeze in and out of. How to they not get smooshed? |
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